ME awareness.

Awareness month in my life with M.E. and CPTSD comorbidity is a conflicting slutty story. From the outside, I will appear calm, healthy if reserved and guarded whilst I laugh readily and freely in the company of life. What you won't see is the inner struggle, fire and brimstone, the waged war inflicted on what feels like every cell in my body and mind. One condition desires to be resting, in my hard, fought for sanctuary I at last call home, peacefully relaxed and looked after while the other is screaming and clawing to be let out, to run, fly and be independently free of any constraints and rules. What you won't see is how I, my mind loves every part of my body and my body responding to my mind. My constant work is to consolidate the two, to bring togetherness and harmonious cooperation so I might find peace within myself and so I might someday let someone in to keep warm by the fire of my soul which is excited to have you near. What you won't see until then is the outer lustful dance, the stimulated engagement of every cell in my body and mind. In this month of awareness, I am more than aware. The awareness is not for us, the afflicted, it is for you who look on unknowingly. So with this, I share just a part of my tale. The rest will come to those who dare to seek for M.E. is not for the faint of heart and CPTSD not for the narrow mind. ;)