In retrograde advance.

I think the heat must be affecting people's heads..literally just sorted one less than casual casual relationship out, restoring peace in my life when another completely out of the blue sends a message stating they "really want to"

see me again. It's been a good four years since that short sweet affair...although very youthful and tasty as it was, not sure I want to get back on that merry-go-round, I'm not sure I don't. What a summer this is turning out to be. Can hardly wait to see what turns up next. 😂

When the past comes knocking.

A dose of another's reality to cure all that ails when ails have haunted a fortnight away. Clarity of mind grown from the other's misjudged insight, an age old resurgence of attributed blame where blame was only a partial segment of the whole comes pushing through the door long held tightly closed and, woa..this conflicting journey has come to a thumping halt, time to settle in and bear witness to the reality that is mine, the truth I would tell should someone have an ear to listen, a care to understand the wildly different picture to which they believe they know. That "thing" I had for the one I fooled around and fell in a mess of delicious confusion, the something that took me by the hand I willingly followed was, it could appear, the rabbit hole I ceremoniously draw myself toward....a reminder of swallowed wounds not yet healed. Split apart I sit in wallowed necessity, a luxury I can afford, a whole I need to regain within. Another journey awaits...I'm steadied enough.

I fooled around and fell in love.

Got me into a whole heap of lacking appetite and deprived sleep. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DyMMEmwFQUE

Turner's The decline of the Carthaginian empire on Dr Martens 8 hole...these boots are made for walking.

Time to walk away while the going is good...while my heart can stand up to the rejection, while my eyes still gaze upward, taken on the wings of birds, while I still smile and laugh with abandon ease but primarily...primarily before I fall too deep as deeper is where I'm heading. Unrequited isn't an option I pack for my journey.

Love is a choice.

Walk a lifetime in my shoes then tell me, who would you be now? Would you have survived, evolved stronger and with love in your heart from the angry ashes of a lost life, a life stolen at conception? I have. I felt the grief masked by my anger and choose to live with compassion and understanding.

A smile is worth a thousand pictures.

Yet again, I have a "beautiful smile". It certainly seems to attract. The crux, as always...we shall see this time around, the rest of me.